How I Got My Om Back: Uprooting Your Yoga Classes and Growing New Roots

I tipped the movers and glanced at my watch. The moving van had not even left the premises before I had to hop in the car to go teach my very first class in San Francisco. Luckily, I was teaching for the same studio where I had taught in Los Angeles and had been spending a lot of time in the Bay, while my husband and I navigated our then-long-distance tryst. Despite having been teaching for almost a decade at this point, I was nervous beyond belief.

When I arrived at the studio, the classroom was already filled with expectant faces. Since I was new to the city, I had said “yes” to every opportunity that was offered. You must throw a lot of you-know-what against the wall to see what sticks. I could have told you immediately that I was not a beginner’s teacher, but it was the only slot available at the time, and I was lucky to even have a permanent class.

The minute the doors shut and I began the class, I felt an uneasy yet familiar feeling wash over me—something I had not dealt with or faced since I first started teaching. It took me over like sudden stomach flu, and before I knew it, my body was riddled with its most debilitating symptom: doubt.

The “I-am-not-enough” virus had taken hold.

Woman teaching yoga to group of yoga students.

The Second-Guessing Syndrome

I began to second guess everything that came out of my mouth. I could no longer read the room.  I started shaking with uncertainty, as thoughts like, “do they like me?” “Is this okay?” “Is this too hard?” “too easy?” “what do they want?” began popping up in my head, like a demented internal whack-a-mole.

The 55-minute class felt like four hours, and by the time Savasana came around, I was grateful for the peace that finally set in once I stopped talking. I watched the bodies lying there blissfully and took in the room. It suddenly hit me. I was in San Francisco! I was no longer in Los Angeles. I had no idea how this was going to affect my career.

Yes, I had moved for love, but I also did it for myself. I had lived in LA nearly my whole life and was excited to explore a new market. The only thing was that I had no idea what this market was like! My teacher had moved up to the Bay a few years prior, so I knew her style, and I had taken workshops and signature classes at my studio, but I had barely scraped the surface of yoga in Northern California.

The clock eked to the end of class, and I began talking to the students through their re-entry. As I felt the last student settle, I opened my mouth to chant om. I had been looking forward to this moment. A good om can make all the difference when you have had a challenging class. It connects us on a vibrational level to one another, but also to the greater world. After all, om is thought to be the omnipresent song of the universe. When I opened my mouth, om seemed to croak out, and no matter what key I strived to hit, my om was just off.

This continued to happen for almost the entire first year of living in San Francisco. I would start class confidently when midway through the “I-am-not-enough-virus” would set in, and doubt would take over to the point where I would spend half the time fighting off old limiting thoughts like, “do they like this?,” “do they like me?,” and “is this what San Francisco yogis want?” Inevitably leading to a final nails-on-a-chalkboard om.

Woman teaching yoga to group of yoga students.

Uprooting Your Yoga Classes and Growing New Roots

Regardless of how long one has been teaching for, moving somewhere new means rebuilding your business from the ground up. It means teaching at as many venues as possible, so you can refine over time where you want to lay down roots. It means commuting across freeways and bridges, having to leave three-and-a-half hours before your class starts to fight rush-hour traffic. Sometimes this means teaching for the same amount you just spent in gas and bridge tolls. It means teaching levels that you know are not your niche, but being grateful you even have a permanent class on the schedule.

The thing is, though, as we run around scrambling to establish ourselves in a new community, it leaves very little time to get to know the actual community! It did not help that I had a home practice and spent any remaining free time with my partner. What this meant was that I had spent very little time learning the landscape of the yoga scene.

Around the one-year mark, I went through a mourning period. During the first 11 months, I was bright-eyed and excited, smiling at everyone passing by and all but throwing my hat up Mary Tyler Moore style downtown. Then I started to miss home. I missed my family, my friends, and my students deeply. And I realized that other than on social media and in passing between classes, I had not tried very hard to become a part of the San Francisco community. I needed to hit the pavement, literally.

The best way to get to know a city is to walk it. Coming from LA, this was a whole new world! I had all the wrong shoes at first, and my feet paid dearly. But once armed with new sneakers and the determination to get rooted, I felt unstoppable. Walking helps you ground, as you are literally on the earth. You breathe fresh air and set your own pace. Your commute time is always reliable. And serendipitously, I started to run into other yoga teachers everywhere! Faces I had seen on the small box of Instagram came to life, and friendships began to form.

Woman teaching yoga to group of yoga students.

I also started to take classes in the community. What I learned was that there was a wide variety of classes out there. There was no one Northern California yoga style. Some classes were super hard, and some were soft. Some were alignment-based, some cranked the music and flowed. Some had chanting, and some had none. I had been so concerned with trying to figure out what the students wanted that I had not stopped to check in with myself and remember why I’m teaching.

I didn’t need to change what I was teaching. I needed to get back to my why. The antidote to the “I-am-not-enough” virus? Remembering your purpose!

I teach to help people connect more deeply to themselves. I teach to help people be kinder to themselves. I teach to empower people to take ownership of their experience. It was time to follow my own lessons.

The minute I owned who I was as a teacher again, my classes grew. My friendships blossomed. My heart began to heal, and I recognized that I had not lost Los Angeles, but instead gained San Francisco.

And wouldn’t you know it, I got my om back.

Tom Myers, YogaUOnline presenter, wellness, yoga and fascia, lifelong mibility

Reprinted with permission from

Sarah Ezrin, yoga teacher, motivational speaker, writer

Sarah Ezrin is a motivator, writer, yoga teacher, and teacher trainer. Her joie de vivre is infectious. Her fun and popular yoga classes are infused with humor and positivity. Bringing a background of psychology and life coaching, Sarah lovingly guides people toward their brightest and best self.

Sarah is an E-RYT-500. She is based out of San Francisco, where she lives with her husband and dog. A world traveler since birth, Sarah leads trainings, workshops, and retreats at home and across the globe. She is also a certified life coach.

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